just saw a picture of my mom for the first time since, fuck at least more than a year. Not a good reaction, i'm kind of freaking out right now.
so muchbut I guess sometimes you just need to fucking cry it all out. i guess
just saw a picture of my mom for the first time since, fuck at least more than a year. Not a good reaction, i'm kind of freaking out right now.
so muchbut I guess sometimes you just need to fucking cry it all out. i guess
Last edited by sbessiso; 12-09-2011 at 05:55 AM.
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Originally Posted by Wayne Coyne
If your kind and thoughtful nature is any indication of the type of person your Mother was, than I am not only sorry for your loss but ours as well.
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11/07 Rufus Du Sol @ The Mezzanine (?)
11/13 Mr Little Jeans @ The Rickshaw Stop
11/20 Keep Shelly in Athens @ Awaken
I carry my mom's photo id badge from her job in my wallet.
Whiskey Sour
2 oz blended whiskey
Juice of 1/2 lemon
1/2 tsp powdered sugar
1 cherry
1/2 slice lemon
Shake blended whiskey, juice of lemon, and powdered sugar with ice and strain into a whiskey sour glass. Decorate with the half-slice of lemon, top with the cherry, and serve.
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Originally Posted by Wayne Coyne
The good thing about pictures is that they're always there, waiting until the day you're ready. You'll get there eventually, promise. Love you, Sally.
I don't look at the photo as often as you would imagine. It still makes me verklempt after 7 years.
Whiskey Sour
2 oz blended whiskey
Juice of 1/2 lemon
1/2 tsp powdered sugar
1 cherry
1/2 slice lemon
Shake blended whiskey, juice of lemon, and powdered sugar with ice and strain into a whiskey sour glass. Decorate with the half-slice of lemon, top with the cherry, and serve.
6 years ago, at about 3:45 in the morning, my best friend's younger brother passed away at 18. I'm pretty much a part of their family and it was certainly the most jarring and grief stricken period I've ever experienced -- from helping to plan the funeral, catching his mother from fainting when she first saw him presented in the open casket, and holding onto my friend when she had an out of body experience and tried to jump into grave with him. We buried him in a nice suit and these hideous neon orange bowling shoes that he was proud of...though he never bowled higher than a 50. It's so strange to have lost someone you grew up laughing with.
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4/25: Rolling Coastal Blackout Fever, Sloucher @ The Crocodile
4/27-30: Stagecoach
5/16: Mount Kimbie @ Neumo's
5/25-27: Sasquatch
^^^I was sad with you then I read your sig and smiled
As the years go by, the realization of how much time has passed will often bring a fresh sort of pain, as you realize you've grown up and away and have moved forward in your life in a way that the person never will, never had the opportunity to. It is sad.
Went through the same thing a couple of Thanksgivings ago; my best friend from elementary/high school's older brother (by a year) died from a brain tumor. He used to annoy us by putting his boom box outside his sister's door when we were in her room and blast Weird Al Yankovich. It's the most upset over someone's death that I've ever been, including family.
I have no fucking idea how people cope with loosing their children.
April was the 11th year since my older brother passed away. He was in a car accident and was not found for a few hours. He survived the crash but his leg bone was broken so bad that it broke skin. He was operated a few days later after, once they killed the infection caused by the skin breaking. He passed away a week after the crash from a Blood clot that went to his lungs. This happened in Mexico, and My parents flew out to be with him. I was left behind to take care of my kid brother and sister. It was 5 years before I was able to let myself mourn. Even the first time I went to visit his burial site, I was under the impression that he would just pop out and say "Psyche"!!!! I still don't know how to express how his death affected my views on death. Just weird a few years ago on my birthday, and knew that I was now older than my older brother. Thanks to all of you who have shared , because I know I have a very hard time opening up about this.
You know, but that's valid because if we are all gonna die anyway, shouldn't we be enjoying ourselves now? You know, I'd like to quit thinking of the present, like right now, as some minor insignificant preamble to something else.
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It's that tad bit of Crazy that keeps me Sane...
Yes, Randy, everyone on the board has their tale to tell. Unless you are very young, very lucky, or both, you've had some - or many - experiences with death. You unloaded endlessly about your father, and with great detail, when you first got here. We get it, you know all about it. No need to diminish the experiences of others.
I had a buddy that passed away in a hunting accident two weeks ago. His hunting partner thought he was a deer.
At least we can all agree that death kind of sucks and fucks up those left alive pretty well. This was a hard year for me. Lost a young family member to drug overdose. Also lost my mentor and one of my best friends to cancer. He succumbed after 9 years of kicking ass on that shit disease. Miss you, my friend. Never will be forgotten.
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No matter how much merriment and cheer there is around me this time of year, my soul remains melancholy.
Whiskey Sour
2 oz blended whiskey
Juice of 1/2 lemon
1/2 tsp powdered sugar
1 cherry
1/2 slice lemon
Shake blended whiskey, juice of lemon, and powdered sugar with ice and strain into a whiskey sour glass. Decorate with the half-slice of lemon, top with the cherry, and serve.
I miss talking to TomAz.
We all do. I live in the same city as him (unless he relocated) and rumor has it that at 3:15am if you listen closely and its really really quiet you can hear him telling you to go fuck yourself.
Yea. On the plus side though, my touchpad and keyboard on my old laptop stopped working today. I plugged in a USB mouse and scheduled Scan Disk on boot up and then deleted both devices from the Device Manager and then launched Add/Remove Hardware. Perfect now. Other day my washing machine stopped draining. Quick Google search came up with how to clean the filter so the impeller could move and work the drain pump. Took a bit of elbow grease but got it done and working. Now I am watching the Princess Bride for the millionth time. It's all about the little things this time of year.
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In all fairness he did say sorry before he said get used to it.
You know, but that's valid because if we are all gonna die anyway, shouldn't we be enjoying ourselves now? You know, I'd like to quit thinking of the present, like right now, as some minor insignificant preamble to something else.
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