I've come to accept that whether I can control it or not, I suffer from seasonal depression right around the holidays and into the winter. I don't get stressed about the holidays and the rush or anything stereotypical, because I've at least learned that the least I can do is not get hung up in it and not put more stress onto myself, but I'm an introvert and I have a way with absorbing the tension and bustle around me made by others. I also feel lonelier around this time of year more than others because it's a very social time of year, and because I don't have a girlfriend or a dependable group of friends, I become very withdrawn socially. It's not a great feeling when you get so down on yourself that you just want to stay inside, curl up into a ball and sleep forever.
Not sure if this is because I live in New England where there's so much less sunlight this time of year, but in a very respectful way, here's sending out a beacon to others who may be in the same position. It's not fun and feeling like you're the most unwanted person in the world is never a great way to think.