just saw a picture of my mom for the first time since, fuck at least more than a year. Not a good reaction, i'm kind of freaking out right now.
so much :( but I guess sometimes you just need to fucking cry it all out. i guess
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just saw a picture of my mom for the first time since, fuck at least more than a year. Not a good reaction, i'm kind of freaking out right now.
so much :( but I guess sometimes you just need to fucking cry it all out. i guess
If your kind and thoughtful nature is any indication of the type of person your Mother was, than I am not only sorry for your loss but ours as well.
I carry my mom's photo id badge from her job in my wallet.
youre going to make me cry again, that is too nice.Quote:
Originally Posted by fikus222
Im not at a point yet where I can have or look at pictures. I dont care if its been a year and 8 months its still too soon for me.
The good thing about pictures is that they're always there, waiting until the day you're ready. You'll get there eventually, promise. Love you, Sally.
I don't look at the photo as often as you would imagine. It still makes me verklempt after 7 years.
6 years ago, at about 3:45 in the morning, my best friend's younger brother passed away at 18. I'm pretty much a part of their family and it was certainly the most jarring and grief stricken period I've ever experienced -- from helping to plan the funeral, catching his mother from fainting when she first saw him presented in the open casket, and holding onto my friend when she had an out of body experience and tried to jump into grave with him. We buried him in a nice suit and these hideous neon orange bowling shoes that he was proud of...though he never bowled higher than a 50. It's so strange to have lost someone you grew up laughing with.
^^^I was sad with you then I read your sig and smiled
My baby brother and I lost our life long best friend/brother-from-another-mother to a drunk driver a few months ago. He was 23. I've never felt pain like that. It was physical, body shaking pain that lasted weeks. I'm so sorry you had to experience this.Quote:
Originally Posted by guedita
As the years go by, the realization of how much time has passed will often bring a fresh sort of pain, as you realize you've grown up and away and have moved forward in your life in a way that the person never will, never had the opportunity to. It is sad.
Went through the same thing a couple of Thanksgivings ago; my best friend from elementary/high school's older brother (by a year) died from a brain tumor. He used to annoy us by putting his boom box outside his sister's door when we were in her room and blast Weird Al Yankovich. It's the most upset over someone's death that I've ever been, including family.Quote:
Originally Posted by guedita
I have no fucking idea how people cope with loosing their children.
Well, this has been a heartbreaking bump.
April was the 11th year since my older brother passed away. He was in a car accident and was not found for a few hours. He survived the crash but his leg bone was broken so bad that it broke skin. He was operated a few days later after, once they killed the infection caused by the skin breaking. He passed away a week after the crash from a Blood clot that went to his lungs. This happened in Mexico, and My parents flew out to be with him. I was left behind to take care of my kid brother and sister. It was 5 years before I was able to let myself mourn. Even the first time I went to visit his burial site, I was under the impression that he would just pop out and say "Psyche"!!!! I still don't know how to express how his death affected my views on death. Just weird a few years ago on my birthday, and knew that I was now older than my older brother. Thanks to all of you who have shared , because I know I have a very hard time opening up about this.
To everyone reciting their experiences adjusting to the first major death in their lives:
sorry, get used to it.
http://www.deesecret.com/blog/wp-con...ryone-dies.jpgQuote:
Originally Posted by RotationSlimWang
Yes, Randy, everyone on the board has their tale to tell. Unless you are very young, very lucky, or both, you've had some - or many - experiences with death. You unloaded endlessly about your father, and with great detail, when you first got here. We get it, you know all about it. No need to diminish the experiences of others.
I had a buddy that passed away in a hunting accident two weeks ago. His hunting partner thought he was a deer.
There's plenty of reasons: general malice, various insecurities, directionless spite towards others.Quote:
Originally Posted by HowToDisappear
Well, at least you know yourself.
At least we can all agree that death kind of sucks and fucks up those left alive pretty well. This was a hard year for me. Lost a young family member to drug overdose. Also lost my mentor and one of my best friends to cancer. He succumbed after 9 years of kicking ass on that shit disease. Miss you, my friend. Never will be forgotten.
All I'm saying is there's nothing new left to say.
Unless I'm saying it, in which case it is original and insightful.
Hm. Had an idea- next time I have a death of someone close to me, I'll message you details and you can post up thoughts here with your own prose. You'll be kind of a public forum "death filter". Work for you?Quote:
Originally Posted by RotationSlimWang
No matter how much merriment and cheer there is around me this time of year, my soul remains melancholy.
I haven't had anything yet. My parents are getting really old though. I was not terribly close to my grandparents, and both my grandmothers died when I was 10. I would like to have a place to talk about it when it happens.Quote:
Originally Posted by HowToDisappear
Yea. On the plus side though, my touchpad and keyboard on my old laptop stopped working today. I plugged in a USB mouse and scheduled Scan Disk on boot up and then deleted both devices from the Device Manager and then launched Add/Remove Hardware. Perfect now. Other day my washing machine stopped draining. Quick Google search came up with how to clean the filter so the impeller could move and work the drain pump. Took a bit of elbow grease but got it done and working. Now I am watching the Princess Bride for the millionth time. It's all about the little things this time of year.Quote:
Originally Posted by fatbastard
In all fairness he did say sorry before he said get used to it.
That works fine, yes.Quote:
Originally Posted by sonnyboy11
In fact, can we get this going in general? Dani, is there any way you can set this board up so that all the posts have to be routed through me first?
... 'cause shit would get seriously funny.
hahahahahaQuote:
Originally Posted by RotationSlimWang